Reflection

As I gaze into the pond that is life, all of the beauty and wonders that is nature frame the bewitching eyes below.

The eyes bespell and create a sense of confusion in me. I want to look away, but I dare not. Just who am I looking at, myself or someone else.

The reflection doesn't look like me, but it feels like me, it feels like home.

*written 2006*

Recently I've made some new online friends. Do I feel the need to qualify that they're online as opposed to local, of course not. However I do feel that online friends tend to be in a completely different calibre than the everyday run of the mill people I encounter. Is this good or bad, no, just different.

For me I tend to put up with more garbage from people in my immediate surroundings than I ever would from people online. Is that a bad thing, certainly not. It just means that I tend to be less "true" to me. Of course this mostly has been since I've been married. The marriage has nothing to do with it per se, just that being that my spouse is in the military, you never know who you'll see again and it can be more like being back in high school with the "I can't be friends with you cuz my friend doesn't like you".

Okay where am I going with this. I don't know if it is the age gap or something else, but I find that most of the people in my immediate locality (wherever that may be) and I have very little in common. Apart from the fact that we live in the same area is the only thing that brings us together. Would I choose those same people as friends in another situation, certainly not. This isn't to say that these are bad people, because they're not. The situation being what it is, I deal with the cards that are dealt and make the most of it.

This brings me back to my new online friends. These are people I choose to talk to (although I'm sure at times they'd rather I talk less) and we have "real" conversations about "real" things and not the "what are we drinking tonight and where are we going". While the latter is appropriate on occasion, it gets old after the 10th day in a row.

So thank you to MJ, Fi and BW (order in which I met you) for reviving my belief that even though it's rarely come by (for me at least) there are people out there who you can make a connection with.